I’ve spent the week in New York City, training for my new job. My brain is pretty much melting. SO much new information, plus all the frenetic energy of the city. I’ve been wined and dined but have also had a lot of time to myself. I’ve also been pretty good about keeping up with my health goals: I’ve jogged twice, took a 4 mile walk, and did some bodyweight exercises in my hotel room. Running in New York is a different beast. I’m not near anyplace good to run, so I’ve just been zig-zagging my way through Midtown. I’ve also made a decent effort to eat healthfully, despite all the amazing temptations up here.
I knew taking this job would mean stepping outside my comfort zone. And I wasn’t wrong. I’ve gone from being an expert in my field to almost starting over. It’s scary! I’ve been doubting my decision all week. It does help that I kind of anticipated this doubt. I’m definitely giving this a go. I imagine it will be better when I’m back in Atlanta, as the team there is older. (The digital world in NYC is soooooo young!) It will be important for me to continually remind myself why I made this decision. I needed to take this chance and I needed a change of scenery.
I fly back to Atlanta tonight. Overall, my anxiety about flying has been much better this trip. I sort of feel resigned to it. Assumin I make it home safely, we’re going to spend the weekend house hunting. We’re scheduled to close on our current home on August 20th, so we really need to figure out what we want to do. We’re all over the place, between downsizing (condo), buying a vacation property, moving to the almost-country and getting a big ol’ house with room for our families. TBD…
SO. MUCH. CHANGE. I might have overdone it 🙂
Today’s inspiration comes from David at Raptitude. I enjoy his thoughtful writings each week. I’m not going to add much to his blog post, because he says it better than I can.
But I’ve been thinking a lot about taking chances, about setting goals, about putting myself into uncomfortable situations — all so I can grow. I’m not going to expand my mind and my skill set without trying something new. I’m not going to be able to run farther if I don’t get up at the crack of dawn to head out for a few miles. I’m not going to get to know myself better, or become healthier, or have more self-confidence if I don’t do some things that are hard.
And I agree with David, that something that may seem hard is actually going to make our lives easier in the long run. I mean, I’d much rather be terrified to do a few presentations, so that I will eventually stop being scared at all; I’d prefer lifting some heavy weights a couple times of weeks than becoming stiff and immobile as I age.
Anyway, head on over to Raptitude and let me know what you think! Happy Monday 🙂
I can check another goal off my resolutions list: I accepted a role at another company! I can’t even begin to tell you what an emotional roller coaster this decision has been. I really love where I work – it’s a wonderful place that consistently gets voted in the top five places to work in Atlanta. I love my team, and my boss has been awesome about letting me change my role so that I could continue to grow. Writing that makes me feel like I’m a little bit crazy to leave. I’ve been feeling that way all week, since I received the offer.
It was agonizing to make this decision. My director spent about two hours trying to talk me out of it, promising me the moon. My team was so upset when we told them I was leaving that my boss sent everyone home early. I can’t tell you how touched I was. This has been one of the hardest decisions I’ve ever had to make.
So why am I leaving such a great job at such a supportive company?
- I’m ready for a new challenge.
- Some people on my team are driving me crazy and I have been having a tough time staying nice to them.
- It takes a looong time to get a promotion.
- I want more flexibility in my schedule.
- I am too comfortable there.
I 100% believe that the only way to grow is to put myself into uncomfortable situations. (Not dangerous, just outside my comfort zone.) This job will put me in front of clients, which kind of terrifies me. I will have to present to them on a regular basis, and will be responsible for managing the overall relationship. This is quite different from what I’ve been doing for the last few years, since I’ve been the client. I’ll also be traveling a bit. I’ll be flying by myself (!!!), which is going to be a huge challenge, but a fear I must face. I’m taking a chance on this role, on leaving my current job, so that I can 1) face some fears head on, 2) learn about a totally different side of my industry, and 3) take advantage of the flexibility this job offers. There will a lot more working from home, which means I’m getting back a minimum of an hour and a half of my day! And fingers crossed we will sell our house soon and buy our little cabin in the mountains. How great would it be to work from cabin 🙂
The next three weeks will be so bittersweet. Lots of wrapping up loose ends, handing off my projects, and saying goodbye. (Although, in all honesty, I wouldn’t be surprised at all if I didn’t end up back there in a few years.) I do feel a little bit nuts for doing this, and I’m very much afraid I’m making a huge mistake. But it’s a chance I know I need to take, and one that I’m really excited about.